I Do What I Do Not Want To Do

In the letter to the Romans, Paul writes about the struggle within him. In his new song, “Love the Way You Lie”, Eminem speaks so honestly and poetically about the struggle inside … loving the hurt, feeling trapped in a vicious cycle. Honesty is so vital. And when that honesty breaks through the clouds, the hope of a truly transforming Savior is life …

“For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.” Romans 7:15-20

“I can’t tell you what it really is … I can only tell you what it feels like.
And right now there’s a steel knife in my windpipe.
I can’t breathe but I still fight while I can fight
as long as the wrong feels right.
It’s like I’m in flight high off of love, drunk from the hate.
It’s like I’m huffing paint and I love it the more that I suffer.
I suffocate and right before I’m about to drown
She resuscitates me, she f**** hates me, and I love it.
Wait, where you going? I’m leaving you. No you ain’t …
Come back. We’re running right back. Here we go again.
It’s so insane cause when it’s going good it’s going great.
I’m Superman with the wind in his bag, she’s Lois Lane.
But when it’s bad, it’s awful. I feel so ashamed.
I snap. Who’s that dude? I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her … I’ll never stoop so low again.
I guess I don’t know my own strength.”
“Love the Way You Lie” Eminem

“So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.” Romans 7:21-25


~ by Ted Wueste on September 3, 2010.

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